Feeling Fragile

Tonight I began several different postings but after writing a few sentences or even a few paragraphs, I felt my fingers pushing the delete button. It's an evening when I feel utterly depleted. I was hoping to find inspiration so I looked at photos on my laptop, browsed through a few creative writing prompts even, but there's something hanging over me tonight that is preventing me from writing anything that doesn't sound sad or depressing.

To say I am not in a good mood tonight would be an understatement. I'm frustrated and I am restless. I am overwhelmed and stressed and I have not been able to shake the feeling for very long for a few days now. I know I'm bad off when I can't even bring myself to write about the specifics. But I'll be okay. This too shall pass.

One thing did help me tonight. I should have turned to it earlier perhaps. Music. I was not in the mood for just any song however. I needed to turn to one of my favorites, a song that is hauntingly beautiful in its simplicity. The reminder of my own fragility may not seem to be a logical pick-me-up, but it does the job of pressing upon me the fact that I deserve to cut myself a break. I need to lower my expectations of myself and others for a short bit at least and get myself some extra rest. Maybe a few tears will be released too; that always helps.

Fragile by: Sting

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the color of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay

Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could

For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star
Like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star
Like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are
How fragile we are
How fragile we are